So often (in fact, so very often that it's completely normal), we disqualify ourselves completely from doing anything in the Lord due to ridiculous circumstances. Call it what you want, whether it was because you were caught up in some sin, or people don't understand you, or you don't want to get in anyone's way, or maybe you think you just don't know enough, or maybe you just feel absolutely useless—at the end of the day, the only thing standing between you and God using you is, well, you.
I know myself more than anybody (except God), and therefore, knowing all of my weaknesses, all of my depravity, and every wicked thing inside, I disqualify myself consistently. It has come to my attention though, that whenever I feel I am in my weakest state, God is able to use me most potently.
But how is that possible?
Weak Jarrod + The Realization of That + Still allowing God to Move through Me Anyway = The Power of God reaching into People's Lives.
An interesting equation. And yet, it's true. When I'm weak, realizing how useless I am on my own, but still allowing God to flow through me, that's when I feel Him using me the most. Pride is extinguished almost immediately, allowing God direct access to use me as a vessel and a vassal for His power and glory, and then people are touched through me—it's an amazing combination!
We as the people of God need to come to the full realization of that. If you only knew how many worship leaders out there just came onto the stage having dealt with fights with roommates, spouses, situations going on, feeling useless, weak and utterly defenseless—and yet, they have one of the best worship or intercession sets they've ever experienced! It's because they have found this combination out. It's like, hitting that button combo on your PS2 controller to get the perfect kill move on Tekken 5. Okay, that's a poor example (unless you used to be a gamer like me). You suddenly have been moved to a place of absolute abandonment, where God is free to flow through your weakness with His power, and you're able to minister freely in that place.
I'm not posting this blog as if to say "stay in sin, stay in weakness, because God will use you more"—I'm posting this to say, that in your weakness God can still use you, and wants to use you more than ever. Don't ever disqualify yourself. If God were ever going to give up on you, trust me - He wouldn't have died for you in the first place. The opposite is true. He wants you, He loves you, and He chose you. So let Him use you, in every circumstance.
